time and all it’s things

8 years ago i was leaving Thailand after a gorgeous time. A year ago, I had just got back from Goa and preparing to depart India. I’ve now been back for three months, after 4 months in SA. 

And I love that I’ve done all that. There’s been a quite a lot of other trips in between them (and prior).

I feel so amazed I’ve done all that, so very grateful I’ve had those opportunities. 

When I left school, I wasn’t clear what I wanted to do, but figured travel would do until I found out. Turns out, that’s what I wanted to do all along. 

And now I want to do more. I thought at the end of August, I was done for a while. But actually, I’m not. My feet are itching to roam. 

And it’s not that I don’t love my life here, the people who surround me. I just love packing a case or three and seeing new places. 

I adore going to sleep in one country and waking up in another climate/time zone. 

And I like exploring. And I like coming back. 

I started by saying “8 years from Thailand”, because I think that’s when I realised so much about myself. And realised, I had room for improvement (always), but I was happy with me. 

Landslide 🎼 - any version will do. The words are what is important. 😊

Headspace

I declare that I'm better with pen and paper than a keyboard. A keyboard means I type fast, but it also means I censor myself. And I don't like to be censored. Ever.

But lets be honest, my headspace is this... I'm frustrated and lethargic, I'm spoilt and itchy to do things.

And I know all about the retrograde at the moment, so I appreciate and understand the WHY I'm feeling like this.... I'm just not liking it and I especially am not liking the 'oh okay what's next?'circling the sink in my brain.

Because I don't know. I don't know what's next. Am I enough at the moment? I know there's always a room (just one) for improvement. But where to start? Maybe a cutting of the hair - but that's so predictable.

So I started with the house, it's had a shift in possessions. 6 years of meshed together lives, has unmeshed. It's a big thing, that's quite a few days of incorporating memories with a person. A lot of untangling to be done. I thought I'd start with the house. And I look at my lounge and I'm proud of it. It reflects the travels I've been on, the life CG and I have. Space to potentially swing that cat I don't have. Space is always a premium need. It's not so much as erasing the last 6 years as learning how to let go of them.

Profound for a Tuesday?