Gotta be in the mood

I'm in the mood for writing... I absolutely am. And there I stop. Because all the funny things in my head and that I want to get out, are not allowed. Maybe on pen and paper...the old fashioned way.

But lets try... posts can always be deleted. And who reads my shite anyway?

So every day, I hear the same stuff - in a different tone or accent but the same stuff. Excuses, I hear excuses every single day. A lot of them aren't even original. I hear procrastination as much as excuses. I hear the words "I can't" on average, maybe 85 million times a day - sometimes as much as 20 times in 20 minutes. It's amazing how much the average human cannot do. Considering some have been to the Moon and we're doing missions to Mars, considering we transplant organs, considering some people can pull air planes. Yup, considering all that, it's amazing how many people can't do anything because they're have a mood on them. 

It's hard to remember that everyone has different levels of understanding. It's hard to not think 'ffs, my dad is in his 70's and can buy goods online' - can't pay his gas bill, but is a whizz at ordering Scotch Pies and Bridies from Scotland. Priorities you see. You want the Bridies, therefore you WILL make an effort to learn how to order them online.

And that is how we got to the Moon, someone wanted it real bad. Someone made an effort to get there.

With that kind of theory in my head... I guess it's safe to say my "I can't"s don't actually want anything.

FGF

Foood Glorious Foood...

I've eaten my lunch. It's 11.41am now, but my lunch was eaten at 10.30am. The thing is boredom but also my lunch was delicious.

Now, my lunch hour is fast approaching... with all the good will in the world, I know I will take myself to the shop across the road and get a bag of crisps. This is a given.

I have to start realising that no longer can I graze all day - I am not active enough at work and when I leave the office, I do not wish to be active. I wish to be quiet. Stillness.

Therefore, something has to give. It's the snacking. And you know I'm making steps (a little pun), coffee/coke/mega sugar intake has halved. Water intake has doubled. Ja. And it's working.

I currently (today) lack the energy. There is literally no extra energy to give. Today. Tomorrow I might have a little extra. Tuesdays are always a little meh.

I'm also on Working Day Seven of waiting for news. I know this is affecting the current meh-ness of me. It's actually more like Day 380 - thing is, once Working Day Ten is up and gone and we're into another training group I'm not on - what do I do then? I sit at my desk - and I could scream.

🎧Clowns to the left of me, Jokers to the right, here I am stuck in the middle of whinge🎧


And there we have it, why I ate my lunch at 10.30am. 🍒