the love you have

My son - who shall be hereby named CG, said something yesterday. I can't remember what it was or how relevant it was at the time. But I looked at him and thought 'Gee I really love you but I also really like you'. Yes, he's at that age where I truly get why my mom said of me at that age 'I'd swing for you'.  He's at that age where essentially he is still a child but thinks he's an adult. I predict this stage to last until he's well into his 20s... if I'm anything to go by. But he is truly funny and witty and considerate and just really a nice person. And I really like his company.

And I'm sure there are plenty of lovely 13 year olds out there, but this one I made, so I have a particular fondness for him. And yes, I guess I have shaped him into a bit of who he is. He says please and thank you because that's how I taught him to behave.

I didn't - as I'm sure many didn't - think I'd be any good at this mothering lark. I didn't think I'd do a particulary good job and sure there are days when I think I must be absolutely disgusting and failing at every turn. But on the whole, I thinkI can be proud of CG and the little man-child he is.  I didnt' want to be a single mother, it was never in my plan of how life should be but shit happens and I have been. And if I was a play, I would have proved the critics wrong. If CG was a cake, he'd have risen nicely.

My funny, lovely, taller than me CG. My most favourite and best accomplishment.